the 24th  / Kory (brother)

The 24th used to be a day of happiness now a day that breaths bitter dispare we think of the one we celabrate on this day and we begen to weep when we think his chip monk cheeks will not be seen our hearts ach at the thought that he is gone we hold on hoping that it was all a dream 5 years gone and our hearts still bleed with the wounds so deeply cut into our minds every memory a fading dream why won't we wake and see you there smiling at us telling us this world is not what it may seem and that we are all just lost and you are still here to guide us so many times I have heard your voice in the wind felt you near me when I need you there but then I relize you are gone an angel in the sky playing d and d with saint Peter waiting for the time when we can become one again where our family will be whole once more on this day the 24th I shout to the heavens hoping you can hear me happy birthday my hero my brother my friend

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i miss you baby  / Mom

hello my luv

Once again your birthday is creeping up on us.  26 years old!! we will be having a bonfire again i hope your friends will be there no matter tho me and gram and b and daddy will be not sure yet if kory and his family will join us i just wanted to say i love you and i miss you so much

love

mom

 

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Hey bro, its been a long time...  / Ricky A. (Brother)

You know I want to say so much but I can only say what stares me in the face everytime I come down this street and walk into this house. I want to apologize for so many things. I always felt guilty for not being there for you like I was when we were younger growing up together. I always told you I would take you for a ride when I got my first sweet car. I never got to do that I want to. But then I realize you are with me all the time and I'm in my car all the time lol. So I guess we have had many rides together. Some of the crazy shit I have done in my car(s) and I'm still alive somehow. I know you are with me and I know I get that chance to share those thrills with you everytime I go on my cruises.

I always felt guilty for not coming by more often. I always felt guilty for not being a bigger part of your life. I know we have lived very different lives but a brother is a brother and you were always a good brother to me. For some reason I cant find it in me to come to you at the cemetery. It's so hard for me to resurrect those feelings once a loved one has moved on but you know this of me I'm sure. So I AM sorry for not being there still...

You inspire me Ricky and YOU always will my superman my brother the strongest willed perosn I know. Thank you for being there for ME like the good brother you always have been.

Love

Ricky A(RMFA)

 

 

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I remember...  / Mom

FIVE YEARS AGO TODAY I WALKED BESIDE YOU AS THEY LOADED YOU INTO THE AMBULACE TO BRING YOU HOME FOR THE LAST TIME.

I REMEMBER HOW BRIGHT YOUR EYES WERE AND HOW SWEET THE SMILE ON YOUR FACE WAS WHEN YOU SEEN THE SUN AND FELT THE WARM AIR ON YOUR FACE FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MONTHS.

I REMEMBER HEARING YOUR "YEAH" WHEN THE MAN ASKED YOU IF YOU WANTED TO SIT UP A BIT AS WE PASSED BY THE LAKE.

I REMEMBER THE SMILE AS YOU LAY IN YOUR BED AND LOOKED AROUND YOUR ROOM AND REALIZED ATLAST... YOU WERE HOME.

I REMEMBER LAYING NEXT YOU TO HOLDING YOU TIGHT.

I REMEMBER DADDY CARRYING YOU OUT SIDE FOR YOUR BONFIRE,

I REMEMBER THE LOOK ON YOUR FACE AS YOU GAZED AT ALL YOUR FRIENDS.

I WILL NEVER FORGET SWEETIE, I MISS YOU MORE THEN WORDS CAN EVER SAY, MY HEART IS SO HEAVY TODAY, I WILL HAVE THAT LIL BONFIRE TONIGHT IN THE YARD AND WILL HOLD MY SUPERBEAR CLOSE AND CLOSE MY EYES AND SEE YOUR FACE, I LOVE YOU!

MOM

 

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part one, DOING JUST FINE  / MOM I. LOVE YOU (I MISS YOU )

DOING JUST FINE

5 LONG YEARS AGO, MY WORLD WAS WHOLE,
YOU WOULD ASK, “HOW ARE YOU?”,
AND WITH A HAPPY HEART I WOULD ANSWER,
“I AM OK, DOING JUST FINE!

THEN YOU GOT SICK AND MY WORLD STARTED TO CHANGE,
MY HEART GREW HEAVEY AND SOMEONE WOULD SAY,
“HOW ARE YOU?”
AND WITH TEARS IN MY EYES, I WOULD REPLY..
“I AM OK, DOING JUST FINE.”
NO ONE COULD HEAR THE SILENT SCREAMS BEGINNING TO BUILD INSIDE ME

I STAYED WITH YOU AS LONG AS I COULD. WE BOTH PRETENDED ALL WAS GOING TO BE OK, DEEP DOWN, I THINK WE BOTH KNEW. MY WORLD CHANGED MORE.

EACH TIME YOU LOOKED AT ME AND SAID, “I AM GONNA BE OK MOM, RIGHT?”, I WOULD LOOK INTO YOUR EYES AS I LIED,”I PROMISE YOU, YOU WILL BE JUST FINE.” AND INSIDE THE SCREAMS GREW LOUDER, AND STILL I WOULD ANSWER WITH A SMILE ON MY FACE,” I AM OK, DOING JUST FINE.

I LEFT YOU IN THE HOSPITAL AS I WENT BACK TO WORK, AT THE END OF MY DAY, I RUSHED TO BE WITH YOU AND SO MY LIFE WENT ON, CO-WORKERS WOULD ASK, “HOW ARE YOU?”

AND I WOULD ANSWER, “I AM OK, DOING JUST FINE.” AND DEEP INSIDE THE SCREAMS STILL GREW.

THEN ONE NIGHT ME AND DAD CAME TO SEE YOU, YOU LOOKED SO GOOD AND I STARTED TO BELIVE YOU WERE GOING TO BE “OK”.

DAD HELPED YOU CLEAN UP, WE GOT YOU IN FRESH JAMMIES AND WATCHED TV WITH YOU WHILE YOU ATE YOUR DINNER, HAD I KNOWN THEN WHAT I KNOW NOW, I NEVER WOULD HAVE LEFT YOU.

BUT INSTEAD, WE LEANED OVER AND HUGGED YOU TIGHT AND SAID OUR “I LOVE YOUS”, NEVER REALIZING IT WOULD BE THE LAST TIME WE HEARD THOSE WORDS IN YOUR SWEET VOICE.

I WENT TO WORK THE NEXT DAY, AS I PULLED IN THE PARKING LOT, I GOT THE CALL FROM YOUR AUNT GLO, I RACED INSIDE AND CALLED THE HOSPITAL, “CARDIAC ARREST” IS WHAT THEY SAID, AND INSIDE THE SCREAMS BEGAIN TO BUILD, INTO MY CAR I RAN, TRYING TO CALL EVERYONE, EACH TIME I SAID THE WORDS, “HE WENT INTO CARDIAC ARREST, PLEASE COME NOW,” THE SCREAMS CAME CLOSER TO THE SURFACE. “MEET ME AT THE HOSPITAL, SAID DADDY, WE WILL MEET YOU THERE SAID AUNT GLO, GRAM AND AUNT NANCY. AS I DROVE, THE SCREAMS CONTINUE TO BUILD.

 

I WILL POST THE REST WHEN I AM FINISHED WITH IT, I MISS YOU SO MUCH BABY I CANT COMPREHEND THAT IT HAS BEEN 5 YEARS SINCE I HAVE SEEN YOUR SMILE, TOUCHED YOUR FACE, HEARD YOUR VOICE, IT JUST DONT SEEM RIGHT, HUG AND LOVE

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on my mind today  / Mom

hello luv, well today is that day again, once again the inner calander in my mind replays things i sometimes wish i could forget, i started writing this a few months ago, started getting kinda long so i thought i would post it in peices as i get them done...

 

DOING JUST FINE

5 LONG YEARS AGO, MY WORLD WAS WHOLE,
YOU WOULD ASK, “HOW ARE YOU?”,
AND WITH A HAPPY HEART I WOULD ANSWER,
“I AM OK, DOING JUST FINE!

THEN YOU GOT SICK AND MY WORLD STARTED TO CHANGE,
MY HEART GREW HEAVEY AND SOMEONE WOULD SAY,
“HOW ARE YOU?”
AND WITH TEARS IN MY EYES, I WOULD REPLY..
“I AM OK, DOING JUST FINE.”
NO ONE COULD HEAR THE SILENT SCREAMS BEGINNING TO BUILD INSIDE ME

I STAYED WITH YOU AS LONG AS I COULD. WE BOTH PRETENDED ALL WAS GOING TO BE OK, DEEP DOWN, I THINK WE BOTH KNEW. MY WORLD CHANGED MORE.

EACH TIME YOU LOOKED AT ME AND SAID, “I AM GONNA BE OK MOM, RIGHT?”, I WOULD LOOK INTO YOUR EYES AS I LIED,”I PROMISE YOU, YOU WILL BE JUST FINE.” AND INSIDE THE SCREAMS GREW LOUDER, AND STILL I WOULD ANSWER WITH A SMILE ON MY FACE,” I AM OK, DOING JUST FINE.

I LEFT YOU IN THE HOSPITAL AS I WENT BACK TO WORK, AT THE END OF MY DAY, I RUSHED TO BE WITH YOU AND SO MY LIFE WENT ON, CO-WORKERS WOULD ASK, “HOW ARE YOU?”

AND I WOULD ANSWER, “I AM OK, DOING JUST FINE.” AND DEEP INSIDE THE SCREAMS STILL GREW.

THEN ONE NIGHT ME AND DAD CAME TO SEE YOU, YOU LOOKED SO GOOD AND I STARTED TO BELIVE YOU WERE GOING TO BE “OK”.

DAD HELPED YOU CLEAN UP, WE GOT YOU IN FRESH JAMMIES AND WATCHED TV WITH YOU WHILE YOU ATE YOUR DINNER, HAD I KNOWN THEN WHAT I KNOW NOW, I NEVER WOULD HAVE LEFT YOU.

BUT INSTEAD, WE LEANED OVER AND HUGGED YOU TIGHT AND SAID OUR “I LOVE YOUS”, NEVER REALIZING IT WOULD BE THE LAST TIME WE HEARD THOSE WORDS IN YOUR SWEET VOICE.

I WENT TO WORK THE NEXT DAY, AS I PULLED IN THE PARKING LOT, I GOT THE CALL FROM YOUR AUNT GLO, I RACED INSIDE AND CALLED THE HOSPITAL, “CARDIAC ARREST” IS WHAT THEY SAID, AND INSIDE THE SCREAMS BEGAIN TO BUILD, INTO MY CAR I RAN, TRYING TO CALL EVERYONE, EACH TIME I SAID THE WORDS, “HE WENT INTO CARDIAC ARREST, PLEASE COME NOW,” THE SCREAMS CAME CLOSER TO THE SURFACE. “MEET ME AT THE HOSPITAL, SAID DADDY, WE WILL MEET YOU THERE SAID AUNT GLO, GRAM AND AUNT NANCY. AS I DROVE, THE SCREAMS CONTINUE TO BUILD. ....

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kory's married!  / Mom (i miss you )
Hello my luv,  last friday Kory got married! I know you were there, it was lightly snowing in the am.  He seems so happy, and Krystal is such a sweet girl, watch over them.  not only did i get a daughter-in-law but i also get a step grandson, he reminds me a lot of you hun!  I miss you everday, and most of all at family events like that one, Brandon was his best man, we had your picture there, the room was filled with all the right things, love, hope, joy, and a huge gaping hole in our hearts, just didnt seem right without you, once again it has me wondering what your life would be like now. i guess we will never know, just know that you are close in our hearts and we miss you more then words can ever say. Close

to rick's old friend  / Mom

Please send me an email to let me know who you are, i would love to be able to write to you while you are away and to find out more about you.  it brings me great comfort to know that his friends still think about him, we are doing a memorial campout this year, hard to imagine it will be 5 years this year, everday it seems like just yesterday, and i would love to send you some info on it!

love,

ricky's mom

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Stay with me Rick...  / Just An Old Friend (=])

Hey Rick. I miss you! Sorry I haven't been up to see you in a few months. I'll come see you soon. =] I'm gettin married! He's a sweet country boy. I know you would approve of him. =D I miss you so much! =[ I just got my unit today. A237 in Cleveland. *sighs* I'm up for deployment to afghanistan in a year or so. I was hoping my first deployment would be to Kuwait or Iraq...not straight to the red zone. =/ I'm not gonna lie, Ricky...I'm really scared. I haven't told my mom. I don't know how she's gonna take it. I have the most dangerous job in the army and I have the highest risk of hitting an IED. Please stay with me and help me get through this alive so that I can be with my family when I get home...I miss you hun and Love you so much. I'll be seein you.

<3

Little ol' me

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Stay with me Rick...  / Just An Old Friend (=])

Hey Rick. I miss you! Sorry I haven't been up to see you in a few months. I'll come see you soon. =] I'm gettin married! He's a sweet country boy. I know you would approve of him. =D I miss you so much! =[ I just got my unit today. A237 in Cleveland. *sighs* I'm up for deployment to afghanistan in a year or so. I was hoping my first deployment would be to Kuwait or Iraq...not straight to the red zone. =/ I'm not gonna lie, Ricky...I'm really scared. I haven't told my mom. I don't know how she's gonna take it. I have the most dangerous job in the army and I have the highest risk of hitting an IED. Please stay with me and help me get through this alive so that I can be with my family when I get home...I miss you hun and Love you so much. I'll be seein you.

<3

Little ol' me

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MERRY CHRISTMAS BABY  / Mom I. Love You (i miss you )

my sweet son merry christmas, i miss you so much this year, so much confusing and chaos on our lives right now, you were the one to help keep the peace between your group of friends between all of us, without you it just seems crazy, My biggest christmas wish would be to see your smiling face and to hear your voice again, i know i cant, i wish you love and peace, watch over us and know that you are always  in our hearts, and  forever on our minds, watch over your brothers and your lil neice and nephews. i think a nice christmas dream of you would be really comforting right now, think you can hook me up with one?? i love you and miss you!

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watch over them!  / Mom I. Love You (i miss you )
well hun i am sure that you know you will soon be an uncle! please watch over the twins and help everyone do what they know in their hearts is the right thing to do! i miss you so much right now but i know you are with us all. i love you! Close

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGEL  / Marianne/mom Of Angel Sean Connolly (none)
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happy birthay my sweet angel  / Mom

once again i find myself sitting here wondering what you would be like, a young man, would you still live at home?..would you be married??... i will never know, 25 years ago today, God blessed me with you, you changed my life, both then and now, I am so proud to be your mom baby, i love you so much you are in my thoughts and in my heart ever day.  Our garden project is almost done, soon your butterfly will be on the wall, daddy is going to get a bench for the garden with your name on it and then i will feel like maybe i can breath, for as long as someone, somewhere reads your name, you will be "arnf".  I made some special tee shirts for the bike run this year, and on the back is a quote from a song, i think it is the most wonderful wish you could ever give someone and it is my birthday wish for you...

"good luck in your next life..

walk as tall as the trees..

be gentle as spring wind...

and have the warmth of summer sun..."

today is our butterfly run, in your memory and the memory of all our angels, we will ride with pride, many of us will be wearing an armband and dedicating our ride to a special angel...Ricky, you are forever my special angel.. i love you... i miss you... happy birthday baby!

love mom

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Happy Birthday in Heaven precious Ricky  / Janet (Mom To Nicholas Piccolo)
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY RICKY..  / IRENE MOM TO ANGEL KAYLA XAVIER 4EVER (AUG. 27, 2008 )

 

 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEET ANGEL,GOD BLESS YOU AND ALL THOSE THAT LOVE AND MISS YOU....FLY FREE RICKY THE SKY IS ALL YOUR...LOVE ALWAYS....irene mom to angel kayla xavier

 

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY  / Cheribrooks Ohio (angels)

 in memory rick  for ur parents ....... also

 

 

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY RICKY  / Cheri Brooks FROM OHIO (ANGELS IN HEAVIN )
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Thinking of you  / Janeane Bricker (Brandons Mom )

Happy Birthday Ricky I can't wait to meet you in heaven.

Thinking of you and your family and wishing them peace and love.

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